Where Has Time Gone?

Wow, has it been that long since I was last blogging?!? I am not quite sure. Lots has happened since Halloween of 2012, so lets get to some blogging.

It is crazy to think of how quickly things can come and go. There is no time like the present and we can't just sit here and worry about the future. I have learned the valuable lesson of time as I have developed into a half way through my first year of teaching. It is amazing how I look up and it is 12 hours since I was up and I am still at school. How I come home and barely have time tog et some stuff done before I pass out again. Life is challenging and trying to shape the minds of our youth really pulls it out of me. I love what I do, but I do wish for more tranquil days like today where I can sit inside in sweat pants and listen to silence (NEVER happens in a K-8 school, EVER!)

I have also learned to appreciate how time gets away from us. Another engagement, another wedding season approaching, and now baby news in the group. It is shocking that we are growing up to the point of us now having little ones of our own. I don't know if the world is ready for the next generation of technology savvy kids with their need for speed and constant source of entertainment. I miss the days of going outside and having all the kids in the neighborhood to go sledding with. The times when the morning Horse game happened at the house at the end of the street with the bigger area to shot around from. It is weird how it doesn't seem that long ago for us, but in terms of where society is, it has been that long ago.

I also sit here and think, it can not be over a year since my father has passed. So much has happened, so many happy times, sad times, and things I just wish I could talk to him about. I wonder how he thinks I am doing as a teacher and wonder if I ever treated him with the amount of disrespect I see my students show to their parents at times. I wish that he could hear about the planning stages for the wedding, that he could give me that sense of humor I loved to hear from him. I want him to talk to me about UConn basketball and how his boys in Blue in the state of NC are doing as well. I am not going to say I have gotten stronger since he has been gone but I have learned that I have to sometimes have a little more faith and trust that he has helped me become someone that he is and was proud of. That time will never get better, as the more time that passes, the more I feel I didn't get to learn or experience from him.

The time also is anxious time as Rich and I figure out things for our wedding. It is nuts how even though the time seems so far away that so many little details and things have to be sorted out so early. It is like looking for a needle in a haystack, you will never see everything but have to assume what you found might be worth enough. We are excited but nervous and overwhelmed at times with so much planning and looking into things that needs to be done. The little time i once had for myself seems to keep disappearing again and again.

But in general, it has been a good 4 months. Times of holidays, of vacations, of seeing family and friends, and sharing in good and sad news at times. Even though I am not hitting any milestone birthdays or years too soon, I feel like this year has taught me some really valuable lessons. I have learned that as much as I want, you can't have everything done in a certain amount of time that you want. There are always things that will come around to get you off track. But you are in control of putting things you want to go in schedule. This year will be the year of the Marathon finally. I think it is time to get on that horse and see what I can do. It will also be the year of my first "summer off" which I am looking forward to now that I am in main CMT training season. It is also the first year passing of my fathers death, which will be a hard and somewhat painful time but at the same time coming with optimism of a better future.

I hope it won't take too much time for me to think of a better topic to write about next time, but what can I say, my time is valuable :)